I’m giving up

For the first time in 5 weeks…. I have nothing to launch

Why?

Well, tbh, I was - bit lazy this week. Pushed everything off till Wednesday, and then forgot family was coming. I wanted to spend my time with them vs holed up in my room.

But why not just plan ahead if I knew this was coming up?

Idk, honesty I didn’t know what to ‘launch’.

this is probably a constant for me, and im about to majorly call myself out here but, I’m all over the place rn.

I start things, i don’t finish them. I have big ideas, but struggle staying focused enough to see them through.

Partially I think this comes from building alone, and not having that environment or accountability.

But partially it’s because I’m tired, and I just don’t feel any push to do many things.

My main reason for most of what I do is I see kids my age killing it, and I want to live up to that. Well, that, and making enough money to be independent.

I said this yesterday too, but maybe today’s launch is not a tangible one, but a launching of a new mindset.

A mindset to stop distracting myself with doomscrolling and things that feel productive and to actually stop and think about what is something I can do to make the world(even a small part of it ) a better place.

Something that brings me joy, that connects me to cool ppl, that helps me live the life I want, and freedom to do for others in the process.

I’ll still keep the Friday launch date, but I think instead of building for the sake of having anything to ship, maybe start building things with intention?

Small projects that hit small goals of mine, that teach me in the process.

To have a WHY behind each one.

I guess we’ll see where this goes.