Is it possible to blow up on tt??

Idk but if you know how plz assist

I posted my first TT/reel today,

while technically i’ve been posting for a while, most of it was cyber/coding content. Very detached from me personally.

But in doing that, I felt like most of the content I was making was heavily curated and forced. It also took much more effort to make, seeing as I wasn’t just sharing my life, as it happened.

I don’t know why it took so long for that to click tbh. All my favorite creators are not ones that have heavily edited videos or share only content in a very specific niche, they’re all people who just yap at a camera and film as they go.

I was nervous going into this switch, heck Im still nervous. I just posted the video and already Im already refreshing the page to see the views.

Personally one of my biggest challenges has come from seeking external validation, and comparing myself to others almost constantly.

So by putting out more personal content, and that not doing well, it would feel like a personal rejection. And that stopped me from doing it for so long.

similarly, comparing myself to others my age, and seeing their content do so well, and getting opportunities etc, just made me feel like I was way to far behind or doing it wrong?

I thought I needed to look perfect, or edit the video perfect. Heck I still think that, its not like that mindset just goes away at will, you gotta work on it.

But coming from an environment where I feel disconnected, the internet has been a saving grace. Even just through written mediums like twitter/linkedin i’ve gotten so far, it was only natural to level up by going to insta and tikTok

So today I made that first video.

I hope I can keep this up over the summer, and I hope that someone out there find it helpful.

And I hope that I can keep working on this mindset, because the idea of just chasing things that are superficial will only lead to more and more burnout. Even though it feels great, the flip side is when you don’t get it, it sucks.

I want to be free from that so I can figure out who I actually am without all the noise of other people goals and opinions.

I’ll end off there for today bec that was a lot haha

No post tomorrow bec I physically can’t touch a computer on the holiday, but will be back Tuesday.

And if you’re in NY for tech week, hmu, coffee is on me!!

See you tomorrow (Tuesday)