Stupid blue cursor

Thursday, June 26th 9:58PM EST

I open this app to try and format my thoughts on feeling a bit lost and scattered, but that stupid blue cursor taunts me.

It’s June, I go back to school in August, I graduate in December.

I have no plans, no job offer, not a clue what I’m gonna do.

And yet

I’m not scared like i used to be.

I was straight up terrified when I was rejected from all those internships in January. I wasn’t living up to this standard I told myself I had to be because that’s what everyone said I should.

I don’t feel that anymore.

And that’s thanks to all of yall, who proved to me, through your insane talents, you can in fact ‘just do things’

I feel like I’m at a crossroads now, free from this mindset, but no understanding yet of what my passions are, or what brings me joy.

I love cyber, and I absolutely love helping and working with founders.

I’ve learnt through these past few months I actually have some natural intuition when it comes to strategy and business in this world.

And I want to build something I can be proud of and that can support me financially.

I genuinely don’t know where these next couple of months will lead me, but I do know, I don’t want to keep building alone as I have these past few months.

So my next challenge (outside of content bec that stuff is a challenge fr) is finding community.

More than ‘chats’ and ‘getting coffee’ real community, to build with, to grow with. I think I’ve already started, but to continue to find the people who push me to level up and be better.