Wanna see a magic trick?
Why I’m disappearing for a month, and why I didn’t make a post yesterday ….
+ if you wanna watch the F1 movie together at the end idk
This is gonna be a two day recap.
Why?
Well because I haven’t slept since 8:30PM Saturday, so it seems only right to just bunch all 24 hours together, no?
But perly why on earth didn’t you sleep?
Well, I did sleep from 4PM -8:30PM, was up the whole night.
Some highlights:
started a course on blender, making the iconic doughnut lol
Started Harvard CS50, it is as good as they say, this dude is awesome
Learnt a dance (lemon drop by ATEEZ, idk why either)
Watched some art rants on kpop demon hunters bec that movie is an actual animation masterpiece
Attempted to make some F1 art, gave up
The caught the 8:20AM train out to the city for a really cute brunch and writing session
Worked in a chapter of a novel I made up one night at 4AM listening to my ✨moody✨ playlist
It’s called sky fire for anyone wondering and yes, it is about blue fire
And WW2, cryptography, kingdoms and a bunch of other stuff
After that, went to go cowork before walking the high line for an hour, not my favorite but still fun.
Got home at 6:30, chilled, built some Lego, quick workout and was gonna code but I’m actually falling sleep rn and the Celsius did not help all that much past the workout lol.
My goal for this month is really to lock in as much as I can before August first.
I realized I was making content for all the wrong reasons
Including, but not limited to:
ego boost
External validation (I love me some likes on a post)
FOMO
Feeling I needed to prove myself there
clout
Etc etc
Not good.
I also noticed that instead of supporting my friends I felt a twinge of jealousy when their posts did better.
Not some of that may be attributed to yes, the FOMO. Seeing the lil startup squad my age all hanging out together and feeling left out etc, I thought content was my way in.
Maybe it could have been, but I didn’t like what that pressure was doing to me
So no posting for a month, all the apps are gone with the exception of checking DMs, I’ll be off everything pretty much.
I want to come out of July w real results, projects I can point to and say “I built that”
And most of all clarity, and real connections.
I want to hang out with new ppl more, try new things(any recommendations plz feel free, I’ll be taking dares in the comments)
I feel like I waited so long for my life to ‘start’ I forgot I can control that.
(Partially bec I was under a rock until like 8 months ago ish too, I didn’t know what a startups was until December, didn’t know what YC was until like October last year)
But I want to try more new things.
Like climbing, taking a random art class, discovering cute shops, etc etc
So yeah
Also this all started after I saw the F1 movie rlly, like the whole disappear for a month.
That movie is actually so freakin amazing I would go see it again.
If you’re in nyc, and wanna join lmk. And if you do lmk, I assume you read this far.
I’m normal in real life dw🥲
See you tomorrow